When an intention is set and a plan of actions anchored, should you do a half-ass job when under pressure or had to reprioritized?
…is it better to let go and flow with current movement and events?
I am a person whose balance may easily be disrupted, and as a solution, I need to have certain routines and practical habits to prevent that from happening.
Sometimes I feel confident and in control when a purposeful routine is initiated and achieved. But most other times, I am tense, stressed, and I spend all day trying to get that routine done.
The way I am impacted when it fails affects not only the current day, but often the following day, or even days.
This causes a chain of unwanted events that block anything else from being suitable performed or experienced.
My mind becomes preoccupied with a train of thoughts such as, I failed to deliver or perform as I sat myself out to do.
More unproductive throughs like, maybe a change is needed, ensues.
Or something else must be eliminated to free up time because the very thing I did not finish has a higher priority than activity XYZ. A downward spiraling state of being is now present and could easily perpetuate entirely out of control.
It is not until when a moment of calm presents itself that I realize I had not understood and accepted what is out of my control and that I was not prepared to switch gears appropriately. Instead, I find myself rigidly clinging to my fixed creations in routines.
Understanding a concept and putting it into action where it is necessary and needed are two separate things.
There is an immediate need and desire to possess a more flexible mind and choices in present moments that will result in an uninterrupted flow and a sense of calm and sureness.
I believe the key lay in being aware at all times and making room, without any regrets, for a natural change of flow throughout the day.
I have come to this same understanding before, more than once, and I realize that I still have a period of integrating to perform before wisdom in this area take its hold, and having myself flow as naturally as a river making its way to the sea.
I am recognizing that I am getting faster in noticing and adjusting my rigidness in these regards.
I was never a pro-routine individual. I thought they stifled spontaneity and found them to be a commitment not worth making as I perceived them robbing me of my freedom and enigmatic nature.
I am interested in all things… Consequently, I quickly jump from one project to another or give in to sudden feelings and desires to do something completely different altogether, seldom finishing one thing within a reasonable timeframe.
The problem was that I felt the weight of all the unfinished things I had abandoned, which was an immense expenditure of energy.
Energies that would never return to me as long as I did not close whatever it was that I left midway. This is something I consciously came to realize in recent years.
Closing a cycle could simply mean realizing what I started is not something I intend to finish, no matter the reason. And then to consciously close it. Other projects would be followed up years later with no guarantee of completion.
This is the main reason I found it necessary to change my previous, and maybe immature, stance on not having fixed daily routines.
Today, although routines are a big part of my energetical well-being, they are but tools and should not be a must in my day.
If something comes up that makes it impossible for me to stick to a particular routine or all routines for any period, I need to be okay with it.
Occasionally I get really loose and unknowingly let all routines go in the name of flow. But then the issues described above arise. I am still working on this balance of fluidity in energies overall.
Being aware and consciously reflecting is my way to success.